Hurt, Lonely and Unemployed

Dear Astrology Room

I'm having these emotional ups and downs since I met him over a year ago [His DOB: 23 October 1980]. Our first dates were amazing and I fell in love. I started to create my world around him, visiting him as often as possible as he lives in another country. All our meetings were different, sometimes I felt he is so crazy about me, but other times I felt its just a love affair for him. I finished with him once, but after some time he appeared in my life again. I now ask myself, why? To hurt me again? The last time we met he said he doesn't want to be in relationship with me, that he just wants us to be friends! I am Capricorn[DOB: 23 Dec 1981]. It's so difficult for me just to let him go. I'm making some changes in my life, leaving my job, because I can't stand to be there anymore, going to travel for a month but I don't know what I'm going to do when I come back, yet not knowing if any of my decisions are any good. Are they? Hurt, lonely, unemployed ... with no ideas what to do with my life anymore!!! Thank you for letting me share.

Sylwia

Dear Sylwia

I'm so very sorry to hear of your difficult relationship, and that you've reached a point in your life where you must make some tough decisions. This man, from what I can piece together from his chart, (because I only have his date of birth) seems unable to commit himself to anyone right now, and perhaps never will. For yourself, being a Capricorn with the moon in Scorpio isn't easy. There is a side of you which aspires to great things, aspires to be the best, to live up to family expectations and to live a calm, dignified, traditional life, yet there's the Scorpio side which yearns for passion, intensity, anything but a dignified life! You are experiencing the latter right now, and it may not be easy, but you will come through it, as any moon in scorpio person does, like the phoenix arising from the ashes.

Don't let someone else's lack of love (for this man has little love for himself, let alone to give to anyone else) put you off your own life journey. Whether you travel, return, are unsure of what to do, there will be a time soon when you will come back to your own self, rather than let someone else keep yourself away from you. You said, you started to create your world around him, well isn't it time to create a world around you, and you alone?

If you'd like a private consultation, please give me a call, and I can give you advice about your life direction, and get out of the spell that this man has cast over you.

With blessings and best wishes,

Sarah